I wrote a post last year about Groundhog Day. I was talking about snowstorms and how frequently we seemed to be getting them this time last year. We've been luckier this year. It's been bitterly cold but not as much snow. As a matter of fact it was 60 beautiful degrees today.
But a Facebook post I saw today pointed out that because of the movie of the same name, "Groundhog Day" has come to describe a day that you sort of live over and over. It occurred to me that for people dealing with infertility and eventually the adoption process, everyday sort of feels like "Groundhog Day".
When we were trying to get pregnant, it was a monthly roller coaster. After each cycle with no pregnancy, it became exhausting to start over. Back then I used to say it was like being a hamster on a wheel. You keep going and going, but you never get anywhere.
Now that we have moved on to adoption it's a bit different. It's a day to day existence. You don't plan for ovulation, etc. You just hope that today you might hear something, anything. You just get up everyday hoping that the waiting period for a match will end. Hoping that the deja vu of your daily life without a child will end.
We have been fairly lucky so far. Although we have had 2 failed matches, we have learned from both. Just like Bill Murray in the movie, we wake up every morning hearing Sonny and Cher and go about our day hoping for something, anything different to happen. One day it will.
I know it's difficult to be positive sometimes. You've been through a lot. Keep your positive outlook and one day it will happen.
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